My life

My life I live for now. My life is my own to do as i please. Who gave me this life, DID SOMEONE GIVE ME THIS LIFE? I live my not as i would like but I still live my life. Do I live my my? What is to live my life? I am a confused boy in this world so i create my own world above this one to live as i intend. The worlds often mingle and jingle and I am more confused. Where am i? i am not dreaming. I am not. I can't be. i am awake. I wanna wake up. I don't want to play with you anymore! i want my mother. I want my sisters. I want my brother. CAn we be a family? can't we just be a family? I want to sit under a tree and play woth lions tigers and leopards. i want want want. What do I need. What do they need? I am selfish, Am i selfish? i only think about my self. I cant help it. WHY?