EAP according to Leonard

Cast of Character:

Access "AP" Point - the gate keeper
Wireless "WN" Node - the traveller
RADIUS - how santa knows if you've been naughty or nice

WN was travelling to the world of Cloud via a the route of EAP. He immediatelty comes across AP, the gate keeper preventing him from accessing anything. WN being shy about talking in full view of everyone, coughs to get AP's attention. AP then uses his magical powers to cast the TLS spell thus making it hard for mere mortals to comprehend their conversation. This gives WN the confidence to introduce himself asking for passage into the great world of Cloud. WN quickly sends a messager to the great RADIUS to ask if WN is to be allowed through. 

WN stands there worried. He knows if the response message from the RADIUS is failure, he will not be granted access through the port. He is known to the RADIUS though and it returns a message of success. WN rejoices as he is allowed into the great world of Cloud.

The Beginning.

Help [My feelings at this time]

I can feel the world crumbling below my feet. I can see the tiles that make my life fall away to reveal the infinite abyss of emptiness. Murphy screams I told you so and I hope the tears can soften the brittle hard surface on this side of a hard place. May someone please lift this rock from me.
U help you as much as I can and then I have to wipe your spit on my face when I ask for help. I consider you my friend and you see a tool or a fool who naively tries to see the good in all. When there is none with them at all. All want their own satisfaction everyone violently running up the mountain of their own success. Ripping pushing shoving lying to get to the top and then they throw stones at all those trying to scale and thus turn the other cheek holding a knife to stab the life out the one who slapped them only to find a gun and they both die.

Thoughts at this time. Keeping with the theme of attention loving approval seeking naive boy. Wish I had nothing to worry about. Wish I had no concept of worry. Wish I had no concept of concept. Wish I had...

The Fast and the furious [At the Movies]

So Iwent to Nortgate planning on seeing the fast and the furious and I watched it and it was awesome. NOT

I went to northgate to iceskate but unfortunately I have cheap friends who don't pay R60 to fall on ice. I thus sat through part 2 ( Yes 20 of the Fast and the Furious. Not the best movie I have seen ( that would be Revolver) but it was cool. Ford mustang as always my favorite and the two stunts of lifting the car onto two wheels that Vin(or stunt double?) did were just wow I wish I could do that. The whole electronics in the cars made me love being an electrical engineering student. The use of GPS one day I will be the king of that I have so many opportunities as long as I don't let Anglo or any one (Leonard) ruin it for me.

thats all I have to say...

So how was your day?[ Bad DAY!]

Nothing seems to go right. I just can't get anything to go my way. It is just a bad day. My electronics project is falling further behind schedule, my life is seeming more and more well pointless (I need God in my life) and I just wanna sleep and escape everything in the world of dreams.

The streets - 2[Music]

Well The Streets is not amazing but a few of his songs I listern to. Dry your eyes, Blinded by the lights, Irony of it all and don't mug yourself.

This morning dry your eyes was just in my head. Good song especially after yesterday. I wanna sleep now and learn CSS, i want this ti end and I wanna go back to just a few weeks ago when everything seemed to be going so brilliantly... NO wait wan't that friday? No it was yesterday morning. WOW. how quickly life can change. 

I really need to stop this self pity now and concentrate on getting a 65 for my next test.

PEACE and MUCH love TO you --Lupe

Lost cause? [Love again]

In my quest to find love I went on my second date... okay it wa not a date it was two friends out together. I thought it was a date though and I found out today that It was in fact uhm... two friends out together. Isn't there unwritten rules against that? Well I don't want my girlfriend if I ever get one to go around with friends on what is I don't is two friends just out and then telling the guy on the day about me because I never came up and the only reason I came up was because the guy asked. Why do girls do that?
I wasnt even dating the girl and I was stopping my looking at other girls. I was switching off my analysing mind and focusing on her and maybe that is the problem. It is great when I have someone to actually "like" me back in that way but when I get someone who is looking for a friend to just go and I don't know what then its a problem.

As an engineer wanna be I should come up with a solution. I don't wanna give up on love I believe I can still find someone who will love me back someday and we will live as happy as can be ever after. I need a plan though. SO from now on if I like a girl... wait. I will make a list of all the things that people negleted to tell me in the past namely Do you have a boyfriend. Then I will have a two minute quiz making sure that this does not happen again. That should keep me safe. I think. If it does not work well I have a lifetime I will just refine it till it works.  I can also just become a geek get myself into the golden key or whatever and be super smart virgin who can't say a word in front of girls and live happy grumpily ever after. That could work. I am sure it must be working for some guy out there. It must.

I would pefer the list thing to work though. I love attention and someone to give it to me without me asking for it would just be awesome.

Now that I think about it maybe I desrve it. Karma and all... Gee. The lone life. Now for the list of girls who I thought were flirting with me but were not. Obviously this is for my personal relief and I will not mention their names but here it is.

X
S
S
L
K
M
C
R

At least there are some women in my life who don't hurt me. Maria, Nondumiso, Nomsa, Nandi AND how could I forget Esmerelda(my desktop) Gytha (to come) and Magrat (my netbook, small cute and who doesn't like her). I should smile and enjoy what I have, everything will be alaright.
damn longer than I thought it would be.
Thank you for reading no comments.

End of the sad life that is me:-)

The streets [Music]

The kinda hip-hop that got me into hip-hop. Story telling hip-hop. Eminem, he used to tell great stories. I will find his album and I will listen, I just heard him for the first time now.
Check him out